my beloved
Bell hooks said: ‘When we choose to love, we choose to move against fear - against alienation and separation, the choice to love is a choice to connect - to find ourselves in the other.’
And I think we’re all
A little too afraid
Of doing just that
Afraid to dive in with abandon
Submit our bodies to the thrash,
The crashing froth
And pierce our hearts on jagged rocks
To shed our skin
With no guarantee
Of another
Love is to suffer
To die and be born again
To be turned inside out,
To be changed.
It lives just under the surface
At all times of day
At dawn,
Before the light breaks
And the blackbird sings its song,
In this blue hour
That calls out to me.
Love prickles and pulsates
A wondrous, heinous thing
Inevitable, or some say, fate
But to reach it
You have to reach within
Then out again
Take lessons from the trees
Crawl across the canopy, embrace,
It is a choice you make.
Once you’re amongst the waves
You must keep kicking
Not give in
To fear
To let it drag you away,
Love is
Active not passive
Taking turns to walk over hot coals
A never ending trust fall
And of all the things to do on this earth
Is the most noble
Not to love?
*
A part of me lives on in you
I feel it.
A phantom limb.
It whispers my name
Once the sun is set
And tells me I have much to gain
From the undoing
To keep pressing on
And let myself be unstitched
By love
Only love
What else is there?
*
Once the fight drains out of me
Once desire is no more
I’ll take my body to the ocean
And let it end this war
Between soul and form
So often at odds
So many creaks and cracks
And endless painful spots
Yet despite myself
I stop to admire this tortured vessel
And it’s pursuit of love
Whatever the cost.
What a tender week my heart has suffered.





Oh how I loved reading this ! Thank you for your words ❤️ May your words never find an empty page
"a never ending trust fall"
I'm definitely going to send this to my girlfriend 🙂↕️💌